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ashita *-* [14 Apr 2005|11:33pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

Omg, tomorrow. Eli's flying out by himself to Hawaii tomorrow! He's never been to Hawaii before. I bet when he gets off the plane, he'll be so enthralled. I'm excited for him!! As for me, I'll be getting there either tomorrow night or Saturday. It depends how Space-A is going. For those of you who don't know about Military transport, it's free..the catch is that the flights can be unpredictable; meaning anything can pop up all the sudden, change times, or be totally cancelled. Anyhow, I'll probably get there on Saturday *crosses fingers*

Kawaii Kon is next weekend, and about a week prior to that convention, Eli and I will be in Hawaii together. I will be showing him around the island, making memories and all that cool schtuff. I planned out all my routes and I am ready to go still need to pack my suitcase! I'm sorry I have to cut this short, and I'm sorry I never finished talking about my stupid foot emergency
(basically, the podiatrist took out that inclusion cyst, got me on crutches for a week and a half, and now I'm all healed and walking again with a tiny scar a the bottom of my foot..pictures later. Are you sure it's okay? Okay fine, no pictures. Alright, now before a big tangent arises....). I need to get things ready for Hawaii now. I'll have many pictures to share for when I get home :)


2 spoke| shabete kudasai

Lenne and Shuyin [13 Apr 2005|08:10pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Eli renewed the comparison picture since he's got his hair bleached. He's putting extensions in it tomorrow. Exciting!!

what do you guys think?
1 spoke| shabete kudasai

Their Last Show, etc. [09 Apr 2005|09:29pm]
[ mood | sore ]

That Down and Away concert was awesome last night. It's really too bad that it's their last show, but life goes on, and people have their own stories to write. I'm thankful I got to see them one last time though. They're one of the most creative Christian bands I've heard.

Lately I've been running with my father around the neighborhood to strengthen myself more, and maybe look better for next week when I leave for Hawaii. I don't know what's been happening recently, but I haven't been able to fit into most of my jeans as I used to. It really frustrates me, that I just want to stop wearing jeans for a little while. I really don't look much different, but something has happened.

I got my right-side bang trimmed yesterday so I look more accurately like Lenne. I think it's kinda cool to have one side trimmed on me, kind of adds character. ....lol I also got my skirt back from the seamstress! Now my costume is pretty much complete. I just probably need to buy a little more black ribbon, just in case ^.~

I'd be so happy to be back in Hawaii, and I can't wait to see Eli again. When I get there, I get to show him around the island in the days prior to Kawaii Kon. It would be so good to share with him the places I've experienced. There's so much to show, yet so little time. Even so, this trip's going to be very special.

3 spoke| shabete kudasai

[09 Apr 2005|08:30pm]
You scored as Japanese. You should learn Japanese! Either or you are Japanese or you wish you were. Well, you're not going to transform magically; the least you can do is learn the language!
















What language should you learn?
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dang straight.
3 spoke| shabete kudasai

[07 Apr 2005|10:21am]
You scored as Republican. <'Imunimaginative's Deviantart Page'>


















What Political Party Do Your Beliefs Put You In?
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:o! omigosh
shabete kudasai

[03 Apr 2005|05:53pm]

Erika Mari Gildea's Aliases

Your movie star name: Bubble Gum Akira

Your fashion designer name is Erika Paris

Your socialite name is Baochi Tokyo

Your fly girl / guy name is E Gil

Your detective name is Bunny Moanalua

Your barfly name is Inari Chichi

Your soap opera name is Mari Nimitz

Your rock star name is Ramune Mouse

Your star wars name is Ericoco Gileli

Your punk rock band name is The Happy Crumb

How brilliant is that.
shabete kudasai

[28 Mar 2005|08:54pm]

Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male

Your brain leans female

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

shabete kudasai

[21 Mar 2005|10:00am]
[ mood | hyper ]

I opened my bamboo blinds when I woke up this morning, and saw a brown pidgeon on the fence of my backyard. I wacked my window and it flew away.


shabete kudasai

You Know you're Japanese When... [11 Mar 2005|11:00am]
[ mood | creative ]

My sister sent me this in an email. I've read it before on a Japanese website like a year ago, but I'll post this here anyways, bolding the things that apply to me. This is somewhat stereotypical, but anyhow, here goes.

You're obsessed with your hair, your car, and your clothes

You want to marry a Korean American or Chinese American
woman (males); or you want to marry a white guy (females).

You know that Camp doesn't mean a cabin in the woods.

Your Issei grandparents had an arranged marriage.

One of your relatives was a "picture bride."

You have relatives who live in Hawaii. I will soon :)

You belong to a Japanese credit union

Wherever you live now, you always come home to the Obon

The bushes in your front yard are trimmed into balls.

You have a kaki tree in the backyard.

You have at least one bag of sembei in the house at all
Oh heck yes.

You have a Japanese doll in a glass case in your living
actually in my bedroom

You have a nekko cat in your house for good luck.

You have large Japanese platters in your china cabinet. - I can't carry many fragil things, my nomadic life doesn't permit it (movers can break anything)

You have the family mon and Japanese needlepoint on the

You own a multicolored lime green polyester patchwork quilt. I think we do?

Your grandma used to crochet all your blankets, potholders
and dishtowels.

You check to see if you need to take off your shoes at your
friends' houses.

When you visit other Japanese, you give or receive a bag of
fruits or vegetables.

When you visit other Japanese, you know that you should
bring omiage.

When you leave a Japanese person's house, you take leftover
food home on a paper plate or a Styrofoam meat tray.
same thing with a lot of my filipino friends too :D

You keep a supply of rubber bands, twist ties, butter and
tofu containers in the kitchen.

You know that Pat Morita doesn't really speak like Mr.

You're mad because Kristi Yamaguchi should have gotten more
commercial endorsements than Nancy Kerrigan.
well not mad but..

When your back is sore, you use Tiger Balm or that
flexi-stick with the rubber ball on the end that goes,
"katonk," "katonk."

After funerals, you go for Chinameshi.

After giving koden, you get stamps in the mail.

You fight fiercely for the check after dinner.

You've hidden money in the pocket of the person who paid for

You don't need to read the instructions on the proper use of

You eat soba on New Year's Eve. Udon! *shaka*

You start off the new year with a bowl of ozoni for good
luck and the mochi sticks to the roof of your mouth.

You pack bento for road trips. something like that

Your grandma made the best sushi in town.

You cut all your carrots and hot dogs at an angle.

You know the virtues of SPAM.

You know what it means to eat "footballs."

You grew up eating ambrosia, wontons and finger Jell-O at
family potlucks.

You always use Best Foods mayonnaise and like to mix it with
shoyu to dip broccoli. --how sick is that! YUCK!

You use the "finger method" to measure the water for your
rice cooker.
no need in the rice cooker, but using a regular pot, yes

You grew up on rice: bacon fried rice, chili rice, curry
rice or red rice.
Nishiki is teh rule.

You like to eat rice with your spaghetti.

You can't start eating until you have a bowl of rice.

Along with salt and pepper, you have a shoyu dispenser at
your table.

You buy rice 25 pounds at a time and shoyu a gallon at a
Indeed, all the time.

Natto: you either love it or hate it.

As a kid, you used to eat Botan rice candy. and I still do.

You have a pet named Chibi or Shiro. had a pet mouse named chibi

Someone you know, owns an Akita or Shiba dog.

At school, you had those Hello Kitty pencil boxes and sweet
smelling erasers.

Milk makes you queasy and alcohol turns your face red.

Your dad owns a Member's Only jacket.

Someone you know drives an Acura Integra, Honda Accord or
Toyota Camry. --not sure about that one

You used to own one of those miniature zori keychains still do.

You have a kaeru frog or good luck charm hanging in your

Your parents compare you to their friends' kids.

Your dentist, doctor and optometrist is Japanese American. the one back in hawaii was

Whenever you're with more than three people, it takes an
hour to decide where to eat.

You've heard your name pronounced a half-dozen different

You know that E.O. 9066 isn't a zip code.

In the bathroom you have a crocheted toilet paper cover.

You know the California Hotel is not located in California.

No matter how bad your Japanese is, you still know the words
shi-shi and un-chi.
tee hehehehehe

You have, at one time or another, helped fold 1,000 cranes
for someone's wedding, anniversary, or someone in the hospital.

When you meet another JA, you can be sure you're either
related to them or know someone who knows them.

You have one of those "always hot" rice cookers in your

You were told to eat nori so your hair would be black.

You say "itadakimasu" before you eat.

You know to stop yelling when you hear the word
more like "urusai"

You compliment a person from Japan on how well they speak
English, and they compliment you on how well you speak
Japanese, and you both know you're kind of stretching

You know you don't need a spoon for miso soup.

The ultimate Chinese dinner for you includes: seaweed soup,
chicken chow mein, chashu, pakkai, shrimp with lobster
sauce, almond duck, pea chow yuk and homyu.

You know that summer means it's time for somen and shaved
ice with azuki beans.

Your dad's front lawn is his pride and joy - to the point of
obsession. --my dad is not Japanese

You're proud to be Japanese

- and you pass these jokes on to
all your Japanese friends!

2 spoke| shabete kudasai

-warning- explicit details [03 Mar 2005|08:36pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

It wasn't even a tumor.

On Tuesday night, I came out from my bath and got ready for bed. I noticed that my foot was hurting more, and what I thought was a blister was more swollen and red. It made me nervous, so I just started praying that God would heal me soon, and that He would help me calm down. I was a little scared.
Yesterday, I was afraid it was going to break. My mother helped me put a bandage on it, and padded it so I can walk okay throughout the day. When my father came home from work, he asked if he could see it, so I slowly started to take off my bandage, and noticed a large amount of puss was coming out from the bump in my foot. It scared me. I covered it again quickly and said "Oh no, this isn't good!" My dad asked to see it again, so I exposed it once more. He decided to call my podiatrist and see if he's still at the hospital. I was so thankful that it turned out he was still there. He asked me a couple questions on the phone, and offered to wait for us to come by so he can take a look at it. We decided to do that, so we left in a hurry. The hospital is about 50 minutes away, so it only made sense to leave asap. The whole time I was in the carm I just kept telling myself that God is in control and that everything is going to be okay. When I got there, I hopped all the way into the podiatry clinic, and had my doctor lead me into a room. He said, "You're a good hopper." which made me laugh. I reclined in the chair, and he took a look at what was going on with my foot. And just so you know, yes, I did keep my foot covered on the way there! Anyhow, he told me to just relax and that he's just going to see if anything's trying to come out. He said "Well, it looks like this thing's not going to wait until May...looks like your body wants this out now!" He started to talk to me and ask me questions to get my mind off of the situation as he picked at the hole in my foot with his tool. I was so nervous, I tried not to shake, but I couldn't help it. The pain felt like as if you were pulling thick callous off of your foot, that it would start to cut your skin open. The pain was not consistent, but I felt it a few times while he was feeling around there. He pulled something out and said "Ah, this could be what was giving you pain all along." He gave me a break so I could relax again. There was a smaller piece that came out later as he was doing this. I asked if he could numb me, and he said he could, but it would hurt a little too.

I'll write more about this later. I'm getting very tired.

1 spoke| shabete kudasai

[01 Mar 2005|10:58am]
[ mood | happy ]





woooosh goes my hair!
1 spoke| shabete kudasai

OMGWT[H]BBQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111111111 [24 Feb 2005|10:28pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

I laughed and I laughed and I laughed as I read this article. This is the definition of an ignorant explanation of Japanese pop culture. Brace yourself.


3 spoke| shabete kudasai

._. [22 Feb 2005|08:32am]
[ mood | bright ]

On Sunday I was planning on going to Refuge, but my parents wanted to go to some furniture store in Tracy and then Costco after that. While we were out, I got a LostTM (you know, that surfing/skateboarding/snowboarding company) Energy Drink. The can claimed that all the other energy drinks suck, and their's is better, so I just gave it a try. It was alright, it tasted like a sweeter Red Bull to me. When we came back to Brentwood, we went to Hollywood Video because my dad wanted to rent some movies. I never really care about most movies to really want to rent a lot of the titles out there, but there were some that I did see in the special interest section. They had Initial D volume 1 and 2, and I've always been curious about that anime. I figure since I like speed racer so much, and I love the artist that did the music for Initial D (I always seem to know the music first before the actual story XD) I'd probably like this series. But my dad had his mind on other things he wanted to watch. So I just put it away. I'd rather have them not spend on me so much right now and save up for our trip back to Hawaii.

When we came home, everyone was tired and hungry... everyone except for me that is. I told my mother not to worry and that I'll cook for everyone tonight. I had in my mind to prepare some spinach mozzarella ravioli and some herbed broccoli. For this I needed a lot of extra virgin olive oil, and we were really low :/ Since I had so much energy, I asked if it was okay for me to walk down to the store and get some. The store was about a mile and a half away, but if you know me, I like to walk a lot. My mom was most concerned about the tumor in my foot, but that day my tumor was not acting up at all! So she let me go. It was awesome being able to walk down there and shop by myself. My independent spirit is around family 24/7, so this felt great. When I came home, I washed hands and got started quickly. Everyone else was watching their movies. My mom told me to sit for a while, but I didn't want to. Plus everyone was waiting for dinner, especially my father. lol He ate a lot of it. Quin didn't eat because she couldn't wait for me to come home; so she cooked herself some ramen ._. Well, I'm glad everyone else liked it. I spoke to Eli for a little while after dinner, I forgot what we were giggling about though. My body was so tired after that day, especially my lower body -.-' After a while, I laid down on the couch and played some ffx-2 until like 1 or 1:30. Then I went to bed. That was my Sunday :)

You're California!

In many ways, you are larger than life and almost defy description. You
certainly love to shake, rattle, and roll with the best of them. You have a generally
sunny disposition, but are capable of resorting to harsh extremes when pressed. You are
more likely than most to become rich, or famous, or perhaps both. While you have the
golden touch in so many regards, your respect for actors is a little over-zealous. This
endless faith in actors needs to be terminated.

Take the State Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Neato, I got California. I have no idea where they get that whole "endless faith in actors" from. If anyone knows so less about Hollywood junk, it's me. :)

4 spoke| shabete kudasai

Happy Valentine to my poor foot (the results come in) [15 Feb 2005|09:46am]
[ mood | lethargic ]

Yesterday on <3 day, I only got about 4 hours of sleep because I had to get up early and get ready to make my way up to Fairfield. Alina and I had an appointment at the hospital there. Alina's appointment was way early, and mine was at 1:30, so yeah. We were there for completely different reasons; she had to go because of some oral surgery thing that she'll have to get later on, and I went to figure out what the radiologist from MRI said about my foot.

When I met up with my podiatrist yesterday, he told me that the radiologist still isn't exactly sure what this bump in my foot could be, but it looks to them like it's most likely a fiberous tumor...which for some reason, did not surprise me. He told me that the best choice would be is to schedule for an operation to get it taken out. No, I do not have cancer. If this thing is a tumor (which it probably is), the odds of it being cancerous is very very slim, so it's most likely benign...and I believe that to be true. He told me that this can be an elective operation, meaning that it's up to me if I want them to operate on me, or to just leave it alone and perhaps get an MRI done on it every month or so. It would be a very logical decision if I decided to have them do the operation on me because for one thing, I don't want to be stuck with an abnormal lump of tissue on the bottom of my foot forever, and another: even though medical service is free for military families, I must consider that MRIs are usually very very expensive. Though I have the benefit of it being free now, it's not going to last forever. So it only makes sense to decide that I'd like them to go ahead an make an incision to take it out. Sure i'll be on crutches for three weeks or so, it's worth it to me. The only thing is, I'm going to wait on the operation until sometime in May. If I wanted to get it taken care of as soon as possible, it would be cutting way too close to the trip I need to make in April to Hawai'i, and it would restrict me from exercising as much as I'd like to before the trip ( I need to lose weight). So I'll go through some more time slightly limping from time to time until May. Yep, that was my valentines day special...nothing else really happened. Except maybe coming home feeling very pooped for the rest of the evening. I guess the only one that thought about me much was Eli, which is something I appreciate very much.

shabete kudasai

Proactive sucks [11 Feb 2005|09:38am]
Proactive isn't the greatest solution for your acne by any means. I've been using it since Christmas Eve, and it really hasn't done anything for me much, except for drying out my cheeks...it feels like my right cheek is cracked up. I actually had a dream several nights ago about this stuff. I was talking to none other than everyone's favorite Vanessa Williams. Yes. Anyhow, I asked her if proactive really worked on her. She was all "Oh yeah! That stuff is...!....well actually no. I'm just so used to saying positive things from advertising, I almost lied to you. No, it didn't really do much for me." And that was about it. I don't know why she came up in my dream. She isn't the reason I have this stuff. My parents got it to see if it will actually help. This morning Eli was telling me that the main ingredient (benzoyl peroxide) is probably too rough for my skin, and that I need something more gentle. Maybe it has to do with my skin not getting very oily? I know I don't have oily skin. Oh well, whatever. I need to start studying now.

3 spoke| shabete kudasai

Teh Random [07 Feb 2005|02:36pm]
[ mood | teh random ]


These days, I'm starting to feel a little more motivated with what I have to do. I'm glad.

My mother just gave me some bath salts she never used. She knows I like to take baths, especially with my foot trouble and everything. I'm curious about these salts, I wonder if it's like putting epsom salt in the bathtub. Oh wow, she gave me some ylang ylang bath salts too...holy freaking crap! :DDDDD


I was just drinking some orange juice, and it made me think about orange julius. I love that stuff. I'd make it all the time if I always have orange juice concentrate on me.

I'm terrible XD After like, 2 or 3 years I still laugh at this stupid test.

One more random statement? Okay, let's see. Uh~~~ English class is teh suck! Can I get an amen?

shabete kudasai

[06 Feb 2005|01:17pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I just feel like writing in here for some reason. I don't know what to explain about my life at the moment, but I just feel like coming here to see what's up. Today's weather is very pleasant; the sun is out and warming everything. I'm very glad of it, and it's lifting my spirits high today. I think I will take a walk, even if my foot isn't in the greatest condition, I know I can do this. Oh, by the way, that appointment I supposively had on Thursday, was moved over to Valentine's day. Anyhow, I will write another time ^.^


shabete kudasai

I despise homeschool [02 Feb 2005|01:31pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

All this is a drag to me. Everything that I must do to continue and move forward...there's just hardly any motivation for me now. Until someone cheers me up about this again, I just fall over about this. I'd love to make definite plans or goals for the future, but because of my father's occupation, I never know where I'll end up next. It's hard to express this to my parents, because one of them also wants to settle down somewhere really badly..and not just any place, Hawaii. The other just wants to accept what's here now, and work with it until we will all have enough to move back to the islands. I can't help but find myself thinking that the goal to move back to Hawaii seems to be unsure, unstable. I know I want to go to college there, but what if that dream gets shattered by something? Many of my high school dreams were. I don't even know if I'll be able to get a real high school diploma. So why am I going on with this studying. I've already gotten a certificate of proficiency which is equivilant to the diploma. Where am I going to get money for college tuition? It can't just show up. I don't think I trust my parents would have it available for me, as them seem to tell me. I wish I could have gotten a job earlier to start saving a little bit. But no, I have to stay home, and try to start the day studying homeschool curriculum. I don't feel I'm getting much out of this any longer. I'm just becoming less motivated, and getting fatter. I envy so many, so many who have so much they can do outside of the house. I'm home all the time, having to face my family every single freaking day. *sigh* If only I stuck out the second semester of 10th grade. I wouldn't have to face my family each day, and I'd be more motivated to get out and work. Perhaps transferring to Hawaii back in 2002 was a bad choice. I wish I stayed in Virginia and finished my schooling there. I was doing so well. Now, I just can't believe what mess I'm in now. I was practically a straight-A student back then, now I have to struggle to find motivation to even start work in the day. Being home all the time sucks. I can't stand much of it any longer. I'm not used to it, nor will I ever be. For two years I've tried to work hard in homeschool, but I can't. I'm not meant for this. I need to leave, so badly. This is the one thing I'm always crying about, and always have to hide my tears, otherwise my mother tells me to "stop crying". Because of where I'm at now, I don't know what will happen to me. Dreams are nice, but that's all they are. I wish I could show action, but I'm so restricted. There are also so many things that I have to be careful of what I'm doing, because if something displeases my parents even slightly, I'll have it coming, unfortunately. I wish I had something going on for me outside everyday. I open the shudders and look out the window to the sky, wishing I could be out there, perhaps helping someone else; instead of being behind the window, clenching the shudder handles as if I was stuck in my own prison.

1 spoke| shabete kudasai

MRI [27 Jan 2005|05:44pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]

Well, I got my MRI done today.

They poked both of my arms with IVs

The tunnel was somewhat amusing for that 45 minutes, just not the continuous loud machine noise.

In other news, I bought myself a new pair of panties. XFFFf


3 spoke| shabete kudasai

Cosplay from Anime Expo 2004 [25 Jan 2005|03:19pm]
[ mood | surprised ]

I'm a dork.

I have waited all this time to look at a business card this cameko gave me at Anime Expo 04 after taking a picture of me, cosplaying as Lettuce (a.k.a. Bridgette) from Tokyo Mew Mew. Apparently he has a url listed on this business card where he puts up all the cosplay pictures. So, I finally checked it out; lo and behold, there I am, at the bottom of the page....with the green hair. I haven't seen a cosplay website (other than this one) where any other photographer has me up though. Which is fine :)


1 spoke| shabete kudasai

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